Am I Awake?

So thats the question one apparently got to ask oneself all the time. Well if I did that I could potentially be increasing my productivity but I could also be ruining one of my favorite routines of day dreaming. Before you become all judgmental, here's what some random site has to say about day dreaming:

"While daydreaming has long been derided as a lazy, non-productive pastime, daydreaming can be constructive in some contexts. There are numerous examples of people in creative or artistic careers, such as composers, novelists, and filmmakers, developing new ideas through daydreaming. Similarly, research scientists, mathematicians, and physicists have developed new ideas by daydreaming about their subject areas."

Who am I kidding? I know I don't day dream about my subject! Anyways, moving on...

So came across this interesting concept called "Lucid dreaming" today. Its when the person is aware that he/she is dreaming. Seems counter intuitive but apparently has got some advantages and you can actually 'learn' how to lucid dream. I think its a useful skill to develop for most of the times my dreams are too close to reality (missing deadlines, not being able to wake up on time for examinations and the like) and they scare the shit out me.

Too tired.

Random thoughts of the day:

1.http://lifehacker.com/5441045/sleep-cycle-analyzes-your-sleep-patterns-for-a-better-wake+up Crazy!!

2.iMac !!! Quadcore!!!Badass!!! Thats my machine.

3.cooked stuffed brinjal for the first time. I liked it .

This crazy girl over here

enough said.

The day I disabled Google Buzz

Today I finally disabled Google Buzz. Why? Coz I read the following conversation on it.

A: crashing
B: what happened?
A: Tried to sleep but could not.

I felt stupid for reading that conversation and I had done that just because Google Buzz said 3 unread messages. Anyways got rid of the idiotic thing now. I guess I could be much more productive if I deleted my facebook account. But I guess I should start off experimenting with it. Like not using facebook during the week etc etc.

Anyways, back to the ever existent homework.

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I am inspired by movies as much as I am inspired by real life people. I always fantasize biking to work just like Meg Ryan did in the movie "City of Angels". I do not like the movie but just watched it for Meg Ryan and I liked the idea of biking to work so much that right now I am actually considering to a place further away campus so that i can bike to school. Yeah I'm slisha crazy :P.

Backhand Smash

Today is the first time I saw a backhand smash. First I felt as if i imagined stuff. How can one play the backhand smash. Amazing !!!! Taufik Hidayat of Malaysia. He does it. Over and over again. Back hand cross court or a straight court smash. I have no words for the shot he executes so well. Just seems impossible to me.

Emotionally handicapped

I identify myself as an emotionally challenged person. Now that should explain a lot to most of the people who know me but let me make it clear to myself what actually i mean when i say i am emotionally challenged:
- I refuse to have any drama in my life. No way.
- I refuse to accept that there could be any reason any other person could be having a drama in his/her life.
- I try to keep away from the dramas even the people whom i consider close to me. I just listen and that's the maximum that i could be doing for them. Though that might seem really rude, in my defense i love them and i could do anything that i could possibly do for them but to actually get involved in the drama is what fightens me the most and my first reaction is to run away from that place.
- Anything that hurts me i stash it away sooner than it can realise its full potential and do the damage. I am actually proud of that one.

All these lead to a happier life. I tell you they do because I am happy( well reasonably).
But is that really okay ?
Am i missing something?
Well that's the question that has been bothering me for a while and i intend to get closer to the answer soon.

halloween 2009

cute little kids dressed in their halloween costumes are parading outside and here i am sitting in front of my Boggle code staring at it endlessly hoping it would debug by itself. Sad but its much better than the guilt pangs that i would have if i don't do the coding now.