A matter of Concern

I got up twice last night in pain and popped some pain killers ( after of course cleaning my mouth with salt water etc etc because it just feels like garbage all the time). I miss my Mom now and all I need in the world is to be with her right now. Of all the people I know, the one most concerned right now is my Mom and I for sure know that the concern is genuine. Actually she is concerned all the time but i brush it off when i don't need it and go for it when I do. Is that a matter of concern?

(sometime in Fall'10)

Still Sick...

...and it sucks even more. Its been about more than a week that I am sick and my body doesn't seem to be doing anything to recover as the doctor "wisely" suggested. I think my immune system is taking a nice little vacation of its own when an army of invaders is at its door steps. Actually no, the army of invaders is looting its country and making its inhabitants miserable. As I lie in this bed trying to be positive, I think of my immune system to be a race horse which won't let me down. But its hard to think of it that way for long. My race horse is just lying on its back on the ground at the start line refusing to move or budge and doesn't listen to me anymore. and as I keep thinking , I think I have decided to marry a good general physician who would take care of me whenever I am sick. That way I needn't make an appointment or call or listen to crap like your body will react fast and take care of the infection.

All this might make me sound like a sissy but in my defense I have had a burning mortar in my throat for the past 6 days, had only hot liquids and no real food. All this while having to worry about assignments and projects and midterms. Being sick sucks. School sucks. Being sick at school..... my vocabulary is limited.

Sick.

Sick for the first time in the US and hows the feeling? Well obviously not very good. My tonsils are white with infection and my head hurts. I feel weak. Part of the reason obviously being sick and part of it due to the fact that swallowing anything hard is painful. The cold makes the infected tonsils hurt even more. Long story short, I am in misery. All the doctor says is that he is giving pills to make me feel comfortable. my ass. He prescribed a bunch of pain killers which 5 different ones for every six hours which could effectively put me to sleep the whole day ( which I obviously cannot afford to).
Side effects of being sick:
1. Thinking about home.
2. Rethinking about the whole concept of isolation.
3. Evaluating people's reactions.
4. Thinking about when the entire thing comes to end.
5. 1 thru 4 should have already suggested this 5th thing which is not getting any work done.