Update

Moving out of my "oh so convenient" university housing into "oh so far" house in portola valley. Its a nice beautiful house but my feelings towards it keep changing every other second. My hobo experience and all will follow in another blog but for now this blog is supposed to keep track of my, what I think of as, productive ideas.

1. I wanted to keep an online journal for just research ideas. I am yet to find something custom made for it. Will my summer class help me create one of my own?

2. D school workshops. ( I almost forgot this within say 5 min of thinking about it. No wonder I need to this). Registered for a fun one on July 8th. Came across the concepts of open prototyping and closed prototyping. Thought they were pretty cool (although I think people have been doing that forever now without knowing the concepts). I think I need to do something like the closed prototyping for my CADS project.
http://dschool.stanford.edu/2011/02/28/open-vs-closed-prototypes/

3. Work for free and get a chance to learn.

Lot of crap going on. Just need to be excited.

Wristcutters

I love this movie. I absolutely love this movie. None of the characters ever laugh in the movie. Smiling is banned in the land.
The entire family being there. The elder brother slapping the younger one when he first attempts a suicide.
The Russian - committing a suicide on stage!
so you learn the only way to go is through the roof.
What do you mean "what were you thinking when the incident happened?" Ans: Exactly that.
so far amazing.
but need to sleep its too late.

Why is documentation important?

Because its fun a long time after if not right away. Want proof?

16th October 2008 ...

3.37 A.M
me listening to Nickel back's saving me....
Neeharika is cleaning the corridor using a mop
coz she washed her undies in a bucket
just outside her room. and i find it really amusing..
wanted to take a pic .but no
batteries in the cam.
i am sure i am gonna miss these times.

5.15 A.M

guest to my room .... a lizard.... its a bit dark...
moderate size....
first thought would send it out unceremoniously
using a broom .....
but then decided to share my room with it.


5.40 A.M
my new room mate is really fast....it already has a
visitor and am
presuming it is its mate.... the first it corresponds
 to the visitor
and the second it to the lizard..... anyways i am skeptical
about whats gonna
happen in the future ...am gonna be out
 numbered by the lizards...
there will be eggs ..new lizards....
anyways now there are 3 of us in the room...
me , my new room mate and its mate.

I was searching for some documents in my inbox and came across this one. :)

The Cause and the Cure

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/05/17/science/17optics.html?ref=technology

The Murder of the person, who had to be just killed.

Okay, so the world hails the death of Bin Laden. We go on about how cool the Navy Seals are and so on. But seriously.....

That is how I started my post when I first saw the news article in The Hindu, when the honorable home minister, P.Chidambaram iterated the fact that Dawood Ibrahim is in Karachi, Pakistan. He was urging the international community to bring Pakistan to hand him over to India. That article truly enraged me. I never had such strong reaction to a political news in the recent times. Here we are hailing Obama, Navy Seals and all those responsible for killing Osama but after days of thinking about it, I have come to the conclusion that what they have done is WRONG. Yes, I am saying that killing Osama, the way they have done is wrong. To make myself clear, I am not saying killing Osama is wrong. I don't mind killing him unarmed, shooting him in the head. I am cool with even torturing him to death in the worst possible manner. I think Dawood Ibrahim ought to be killed. As much as Osama deserved to be killed. But could we just go into Pakistan and launch an operation in Karachi to kill him? Of course not. Why could the US do it? If the explanation is that its the only way we could have caught him, well wouldn't the world be in chaos if every country did that to its 'top military enemies'?

Anyways, before I came across the article I had no opinion about the killing of Osama. Now I do. Every country got to abide by the international laws. Yeah, even the US. Even if its Osama in question.

Human

Human by Killers.
I listened to this song before but when it played on Pandora today morning, it blew my mind. The interpretation of the lyrics is mood based and then I felt euphoric. I am listening to it right now and it brings tears to my eyes.
Here's an interpretation I found on the net:

I did my best to notice, when the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender, I was brought but I was kind
-i think hes describing an epifany that he got when he was contemplating the world and life in general

And sometimes I get nervous when I see an open door
Close your eyes, clear your heart... and cut the cord
-this is something that as humans we all feel when we start a new stage in our life and hes just saying dive in! dont be a dancer...

Are we human, or are we dancer
-when we were created (not evolutionized, hes mormon) God made us with a freewill, dancers dont really have a free will, we follow our choreographers steps and wear what they tell us to wear and even make ourselves look like what they want us to look like, our only purpose is to perform, thats what the human race has turned into, everyone has become dancers

My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human, or are we dancer
-hes describing the desperation and the heart ache realizing what we have become

Pay my respects to grace and virtue, send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance, they always did the best they could
-these are things we are taught in our youth, these things are supposed to help us when we grow up and i'm thinking hes saying you need more than that to make it

And so long to devotion you taught me everything I know
Wave good bye, wish me well, you gotta let me go
-devotion is dedication or attachment to something or someone, pretty much love, hes learned alot from love, but hes going to let go of all those things hes listed

Will your system be alright?
When you dream of home tonight
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know, is your heart still beating?
-i think hes talking about when youve gotten so far that it about kills you to look back at your youth and what you used to be

Are we human, or are we dancer
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer...
You've gotta let me know

Are we human, or are we dancer
My sign is vital my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human... or are we dancer

Are we human, or are we dancer
Are we human, or are we dancer

Eat Pray Love. Seriously!

Okay, So I am watching the movie. I can see some of my friends taunting me for that. I am prejudiced to not like the movie and find faults with it and here I go. On the thanks giving dinner Julia Robert says she is grateful to be a part of the lives of wonderful people and says she is the luckiest girl in the world. At this point I lose it and decide I need to write about it. Self pity all the way. She complains earlier that she woke up in the morning and found no spark and that she fears living that way all her life. I must have lost it at that point too. Seriously! How many of us wake up and feel a spark. Most of the days I wake up and say "Shit! I don't wanna wake up" . Well it's a whole another story that I don't wake up most of the days when I have to but lets get into that later. But yeah the day just gets better and if it doesn't, I try. If it still doesn't well the law of conservation of emotions has its way of getting me out of the trough. I'd say deal with it. I completely go with her friend's advice which is to wade through the murky waters than take off. Actually I wouldn't mind taking off so much. Taking off with a baggage of self pity! Again seriously!

I am gonna go ahead and see what happens next.

I fell asleep at some point that I don't remember and decide not to go back and watch the ending. Watch Eat Pray Love and Sleep.